Did I blow it? Nope...but I have just felt out of control the last few days. I am having to really lean on the knowledge side of it all and ignore all the impulses firing in my brain. By God's grace I will get through this. I can't do it on my own. I have done a pretty crummy job thus far trying to maintain "control" of anything in my life! I wish I could just figure out where all of this is coming from...stress? *sigh* Unfortunately that's not going anywhere!
Today I made it through a rough spot b/c I opened up my Dining Out Guide and realized just how horrible my options were. It just wasn't worth it to me to use most of my points in the middle of the day on something that would probably not fill me up for more than an hour or two. That didn't stop my brain from telling me to find the greasiest, cheesiest food I could find and inhale it. (this is odd to me b/c my usual stumbling block is chocolate and sweets...)
So what did I do? Don't laugh. I high-tailed it home and decided to eat...the leftover cauliflower that I had steamed last night. Weird?? ;) It did the trick though and tided me over until I could put the kids down for their naps and have a clear enough mind to choose more wisely. Breathe in. Breathe out.
I have read that in times of stress your brain and your gut have a little chat (this isn't REALLY what I read...I'm paraphrasing) and start sending signals that you are hungry RIGHT NOW and that you need to eat something that has a quick energy boost - mainly carbs. You can either choose good carbs or junk carbs, and since most of us have junk carbs so easily accessible to us 24/7...we choose junk. This feeds the cycle and causes us to crave junk anytime we are stressed. Suzie...am I getting this right at all??? Thank you God for getting me through this rough patch.
Thanks for listening.